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September 29, 2004

ultramega.

I am apparently a horrible bitch, but eh.

Jason, would you please be so kind as to install gallery for me. Pretty pretty please. I'll show you where the rest of my freckles are if you will!

Pixies. Friday.

Posted by Courtney at 09:45 PM | Comments (1)

September 21, 2004

STRAPPLEBERRY!#!@1

Andy, Kansas misses you.

AFK Sinus Infection.

Oh, and even though Alex thinks it will kill my soul, I'm considering selling my two Holga 120Ns plus one detachable flash. There's a Lubitel 166 out there with my name on it and sacrifices must be made, otherwise my future in ebaying will become a liquidation sale.

Posted by Courtney at 02:25 PM | Comments (1)

September 15, 2004

anteek.

Anyone know an antique book store/dealer in the KC area that would be interested in buying a Companion Classics 1932 1st Edition Leatherbound book of Robert Browning poetry?

The heavy stock is starting to wiggle away from the leather. Outside and in looks decent otherwise and smells like old book and is yellow like old book. The pages are absolutely wonderful.

I bought it when I went through my Paracelsus phase a few years ago and have kept it hidden in a box in a closet with a bunch of keepsakes in between the times I take it out to read it.

I'd much rather it go to a local bookstore than to someone on eBay.

And if all else fails, Mrs. Walker, my high school English teacher will suddenly find it in her mailbox. I want it to be appreciated. It's just absolutely lovely.

Posted by Courtney at 09:44 PM | Comments (2)

September 14, 2004

omg omg omg

Look! It's Andy and I!

Posted by Courtney at 11:20 PM | Comments (1)

10000000 things.

Since I know you bastards are too lazy to read it in the appropriate section, here is my updated 100 things. This time it's honest. This time it's not just bullshit thoughts. 100 actual facts about the girl you all know.


  1. My middle name is Michelle.

  2. I collect cameras, mainly ones that do not work.

  3. I have had the same favorite song for years. Chloe Dancer / Crown of Thorns by MotherLoveBone.

  4. I have no idea what I want to do with my life.

  5. I'm certain I'm in love.

  6. I get jealous very easily with my friends, but hardly ever over anything dealing with my boyfriend.

  7. I have a tendency to yell out BUNNY anytime I see one, much to a certain neighbor's dismay..

  8. I will always love me before I love you.

  9. I have a sister that's four years younger than me.

  10. My close close friends are all male, except for one butch lesbian.



  11. I have a thing for dykes.

  12. Once upon a time I'm pretty sure I was a candy kid, but I was 16, and it's perfectly acceptable for a 16 year old to carry around a Cabbage Patch Doll.

  13. Some of the best friends I've ever made have come from FAZED.

  14. I don't think I've been single since I was 13.

  15. I didn't get my driver's license until after my 20th birthday.

  16. I've never smoked anything.

  17. I really regret not trying to date Bryan DeBaets in high school.

  18. I have had my writing on the front page of a section of a newspaper with a circulation of 500,000+.

  19. I've also been a magazine distributor.

  20. Instead of having a real paying job in high school, I did a lot of street teaming and merch selling.



  21. I've kissed a member of a famous shitty pop-punk band. And no I do not mean Blink 182.

  22. I cried when I heard Pearl Jam perform Elderly Woman Behind a Counter in A Small Town live.

  23. I have no patience for people who have a lack of logic.

  24. I had read 5 college text books by the time I was 12. They were in biology, zoology, psychology, chemistry and European history.

  25. I held hands with my best friend in 2nd grade until someone asked me if I was gay. The aforementioned girl is now a crackwhore.

  26. My best friend from 1st grade is now a stripper. The last time I saw her she gave me cards for free beer at her place of employment.

  27. When I was younger, I was constantly in motion. Dancing, sports and skating. What the fuck happened to me?

  28. I will love you if you talk to me about astrophysics. Black holes get me hot.

  29. I'm very liberal, but I am Republican.

  30. I have no problem with nudity or being nude in public, however, I think it's rude to be distasteful.



  31. I let boys use me in high school, and I will never regret it.

  32. I used to do a lot of photography and writing, and when it came time for me to own up to what came naturally, I decided to not go to college and run.

  33. I've never dated one, but I have a thing for blond boys with glasses.

  34. I have worked the overnight shift at Kinko's...alone.

  35. I only look for guys with problems, for friends and boyfriends.

  36. I believe in a Christian God.

  37. It's taken me years, but I finally feel comfortable with who I am.

  38. I've been dating the same boy for 3 years.

  39. I like to say fuck...a lot.

  40. I crave salt/sodium a lot. I will get violent acting if I do not get it.



  41. I watch Gilmore Girls and One Tree Hill religiously.

  42. I don't wear makeup.

  43. I live for UNC Basketball.

  44. I like to sleep with noise and lights on.

  45. I'm afraid of most everything, but The Ring still fucking freaks me out to think about.

  46. My favorite animals are raccoons. Disease ravaged cute little bastards.

  47. If I could have any car, it'd be a Mini.

  48. I had to go to summer school to graduate high school.

  49. I've considered wearing skirts solely so I can use a garter underneath to hold my flask on my leg.

  50. I've never really traveled. I've been to Austin, Dallas, OKC, and random places on the way to Parris Island, SC.



  51. I hate talking on the phone.

  52. I'm pretty much half Cherokee and half Irish.

  53. I have a constant need for control.

  54. I pop my toes a lot.

  55. I've only had four real boyfriends.

  56. My best friend is a Marine.

  57. I'm sooner born and sooner bred.

  58. I love to eat lemons. Cut it in half and cover it in salt and gimme a fuckin spoon!

  59. I once had a small turtle for a pet. Of course he was named Speedy.

  60. When I was six I had a sticker club. We r00led Lisa Frank yo.



  61. I really dislike roller coasters, even more so since I've been on a couple.

  62. I'm a trivia queen.

  63. And generally a drama queen.

  64. My biggest fear is scorpions

  65. I'm an attention whore.

  66. Don't ever ask me to do it if I'm drunk, but I can reenact all the dance steps from all of Britney's videos.

  67. I once had a guy, he was my boyfriend at the time, throw me into a wall. I can't forgive him even though he was the boy Mommy loved.

  68. I can't swim.

  69. I held my dad when he cried after my mom left, then I ran to Tulsa.

  70. SoCo and Tonic with a squeeze of lime please.



  71. I don't want anymore pets. I get way too attached to things and I am too afraid of how I would react to one dying.

  72. The girl I always considered an enemy died in a car crash in June of 2004 and it changed my life. I think of her daily.

  73. I get a weird feeling of depression everyday around 10:30pm.

  74. I'm almost a carbon copy of my mom, except I say cunt.

  75. I like to paint. I do mostly abstract works. I just love color.

  76. My favorite artist is Rothko.

  77. I spend about 5 hours or more a day on IRC. irc.fazed.org #fazed. Come by, I'm courtney. The girl who is always ranting.

  78. There is nothing better than watching The Sound of Music at 2am and singing along at the top of your lungs.

  79. I add dill weed to everything I cook.

  80. When no one else is around I dance around in the dark to Sinatra.



  81. My best friend lived with me for a year or so in high school.

  82. I will love you if you will cuddle with me. I'm super affectionate with all my friends. I need more hugs.

  83. I believe ever so strongly in greed. Greed, for lack of a better word, is good.

  84. I always have at least 3 domain names that I do little to nothing with.

  85. I like to show my breasts off. I don't know why. Most people don't question it.

  86. I have a disorder called Trichotillomania. It means I pull out my hair. From my head and elsewhere.

  87. I beg everyone that comes over and doesn't get drunk to play Trivial Pursuit with me.

  88. I've woken up on a tractor in the middle of a field not knowing how I got there. High school was great.

  89. I lost my virginity to a boy named Nate while Blind by Korn and Colorblind by the Counting Crows played. My mom was in the next room washing dishes.

  90. In high school there was a boy. A bad boy. A boy who insisted on shaving me and who tried to get me to give him a blowjob and then didn't talk to me for months when my gag reflex kicked in the first time. Asshole. Fuck you Robert, BJ, whoever you are now.



  91. I almost always swallow every piece of gum that I chew.

  92. I reenact conversations with people in my head constantly. If you think I'm talking to myself, this is probably what I'm doing.

  93. I once got sent to preventive counseling for a poem I wrote. I wrote the poem to find words that sounded neat together. Fuck her.

  94. I eat at Chipotle atleast twice a week. No rice. No beans. Barbacoa. Sour cream and cheese only.

  95. One of my friends decided to have a sex change. I couldn't handle it at the time and now I have no idea how Amie is. I'm not sure I could handle it now either.

  96. I went to my very first concert at age 10 with my mom. We saw Toad the Wet Sprocket and the Wild Colonials.

  97. My favorite part of your body is the calves. I love a guy with a great set of calves.

  98. The song Black Cherry by Goldfrapp makes me curl in a ball on the floor, stare at the ceiling and cry everytime.

  99. My grandma Jewell is the one person I really look up to and respect.

  100. I think the sexiest man to ever live was Glenn Danzig circa The Misfits.


Posted by Courtney at 12:56 AM | Comments (4)

September 13, 2004

The SoCo gods said, let there drunk.

Webtender has smiled on me again.

Cherry Blow Pop

1 part SoCo
1 part Amaretto
1 part Grenadine

Now, if only it was the weekend again.

Posted by Courtney at 11:05 PM | Comments (0)

Dry the rain

I took the afternoon off of work for personal reasons. I just needed to not be somewhere where I had to think for awhile. One fucking long weekend.

If you want to know how I really feel, you'd have to listen to The Beta Band.

Posted by Courtney at 06:01 PM | Comments (0)

September 12, 2004

all i can say

I should write about last weekend with my mom and sister and my mom being okay with my sister getting at tattoo at 16 if she had the money to pay for it.

I should write about Andy coming to visit this past weekend and getting to meet his girlfriend Rebecca. She is wonderful and I hope they move here soon.

I should write about another wonderful weekend hanging out with the group and getting way too drunk with Scott again.

But instead, I'll write about how the opening chord of No Rain by Blind Melon instantly puts me in a happy place. I'd never really paid much attention to the lyrics, hell, has anyone paid much attention to anything with that song other than a now dead waif in a blue sweater and a bee girl? Somewhere hidden in the middle of the song is the line "I just want someone to say to me I'll always be there when you wake."

So Shannon Hoon wasn't Bob Dylan or Jim Morrison, but hell, that's a fuckin line.

Courtesey of lyricsxp.com

All I can say is that my life is pretty plain
I like watchin' the puddles gather rain
And all I can do is just pour some tea for two
and speak my point of view
But it's not sane, It's not sane

I just want some one to say to me
I'll always be there when you wake
Ya know I'd like to keep my cheeks dry today
So stay with me and I'll have it made

And I don't understand why I sleep all day
And I start to complain that there's no rain
And all I can do is read a book to stay awake
And it rips my life away, but it's a great escape
escape......escape......escape......

All I can say is that my life is pretty plain
ya don't like my point of view
ya think I'm insane
Its not sane......it's not sane.

Posted by Courtney at 07:18 PM | Comments (1)

September 07, 2004

rawr.

Just as an update...

6 months and 5 days until I turn 21. 186 Days.

Oh yeah. And to the stupid fucks that broke into my aunt's house, stole her shit, stole her van, and senselessly beat her small dachsund to death then proceeded to hide its body in a closet for my cousin to find days after...I hope you fucking rot in hell.

Posted by Courtney at 12:59 AM | Comments (3)

September 06, 2004

blar.

Happy birthday Caitlan!

Posted by Courtney at 12:29 AM | Comments (1)

September 01, 2004

oh, they fuck.

There's been much mentioning lately of the upcoming Renfest. I continually say how little I want to do with it, but it seems like it could be fun.

Oh yeah.

And besides, this has Jason written all over it:

http://www.kcrenfest.com/week3.html

Men's belly dancing. I am so down to catch some of that.

Ok, so I really meant to refer to the homebrew competition on week 5

http://www.kcrenfest.com/week5.html

But why does it have to be pirate themed? WHY GOD WHY? That's just asking for a !q sets mode.

Posted by Courtney at 12:08 AM | Comments (2)