April 19, 2006


Somewhere between 82 and 51

I would write about my trip to Tahlequah, but everytime I try I just get sad.

Tahlequah is my elephant in the corner. I just work around it. It's not my existance.

The truth is, regardless of what I might want, if my life stays on this same path I will never reside there again. Keaton will never want to live there. And I too do not want to live in Bixby. I could deal with Tulsa. I did deal with Tulsa. It still feels like home and still feels the same.

Tahlequah. My Tahlequah. 18 years, born and raised. There was something about this trip that made it so hard to leave, and made me hate myself for not going down Friday night and waiting till Noon Saturday to leave.

I miss Megan. I miss Dana. I miss Emily. I really miss Sam. I miss my family 100x more. I miss all the love I had there. The thought of returning to Tahlequah is silly really. There is no opportunity there. And everyone is moving away soon.

When Keaton and I first moved to KS, we said it would be for 3 years. When we got home from dinner and work tonight there was an envelope on our door with our lease agreement for our 3rd year in our quaint little townhome. Happily, I will sign it. The next year is going to weigh on me like a ton of bricks.

And just so all that doesn't get you too down, Emily is well known for her hatred of eating meat due to it being something's "muscle." Normally, she just eats chicken but for some reason she ate brisket when we went out to dinner.


Posted by Courtney at April 19, 2006 10:58 PM
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Comments:

hell hath froz'eth over

Posted by: dana at April 22, 2006 11:52 AM