June 27, 2005


365.

A year ago today, I was sitting on my bed, throwing clothes in random bags and luggage listening to Keaton go on about how I need to hurry and leave so I can get to Kansas City at a decent time.

We loaded up his truck with our things that he was taking to his parents, and I followed him as far as 81st, where I had to turn to get to an ATM. The minute he kept going through the light I started crying. I don't think I stopped until I hit Joplin.

Seriously, what the fuck was I thinking?

Now a year later, the people I considered my close friends before I moved, are the ones that I never see or talk with. The ones I barely knew before are now the people I consider my good friends, especially Jason. If for nothing else, getting to hang out with him every week or so has made being here worth it, even if I've been a challenge at times.

I feel a lot of sadness over my relationships with certain people, and embarassment over others. Some friendships were better resolved as nothing, and some I desperately wish I had the courage to just ask them what they were doing and if they had a little time. But 365 days brings a lot of change.

At this point, I've been here long enough that it's my own fault for not having fun.

What a difference a year makes.

Now, someone needs to come with me to celebrate.


Posted by Courtney at June 27, 2005 01:19 PM
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Comments:

Hello Courtney,
Well I thought that we used to be friends when we were little girls, things have changed now. I have left you a message but I guess you are ignoring me, Not sure why. If I did something let me know. I would like to hear from you
Jen

Posted by: Jen at June 27, 2005 06:50 PM

THE ZOO! The zoo dammit! We are going to go to the zoo. I will post this everyday if I have to.

Posted by: Megan at June 27, 2005 07:30 PM

Jen - I barely remember who you are. You've got a husband and kids and all sorts of weird shit that is foreign to me now. And you're still stuck in that Hell. We are too very very different people. Weren't we in 2nd grade together or something?

Posted by: Courtney at June 27, 2005 09:42 PM

Courtney
Yes I am married, I have a four year old daughter, thats it.I didnt say we were in second grade either. I was just being polite, just wanted to see how you are doing, I didnt mean to get you in such a bad mood, by asking how you are.

Posted by: Jen at June 27, 2005 11:16 PM

I wish I could be there more to hang out with you Court. :( I'm hoping one of these days, probably after I get my certification and we get settled, to convince Rebecca to move somewhere near our friends, as neither of us really has anyone here but family.

Posted by: Andy at June 28, 2005 01:25 AM